Happy Birthday

To Meisha's Birthmother,
Seven Years ago today you had a baby and for reason unknown to me someone decided she wouldn't be staying with you. This I don't understand or condemn. I wish I could thank you, thankful that you or someone place...d her somewhere safe so she could be found. I wish I could tell you what a wonderful girl she has become. I wonder about you, I wonder if you saw the black and white grainy picture that was placed in the paper seeking the parents of this beautiful child about 6 weeks after you gave birth, did you see it? I wonder do you have that spunky attitude or those auburn streaks in your hair in the sunlight or do you get your feelings hurt easily like she does. I look at her everyday and I wonder am I seeing you through her? I really think so....all these things that make her Meisha didn't come from me they came from you. I have taken great measures to find you so I can tell you these things unfortunately; I cant find you. I wish someday to find you and Thank you in person for bringing this beautiful child in the world I hope you are safe and happy and that somehow you know Qi Jia Te is safe and happy and that she has brought great joy to me.

Happy Birthday Meisha I love you!!!

Conversations with Meisha

Conversations with Meisha:
Scene: Getting ready to go out.
Meisha yelling at me from the other room, "Mom are you going to put on make-up?"
Me: "Yes I guess, you don't want me to go without makeup."
Meisha: "No"
Me: "Why not?, do I look like a sea hag without makeup?"
Meisha: "No you just look like you have been washed up on shore."

Pictures from the beach 2013